friends - my last post for an indifinate period of time

i was wondering ... whats the definition of friends?
well i dont know what it is to you, but let me talk about my Dear friends.
to me...
they are the ones who are always *by my side* especially on *Special occasiouns*
they are the ones who *can keep your secret* infact they are so good at keeping secrets, *especially mine*
they are the ones who *share* your life especially *share what you have*
they are the ones who when you have a problem, they are there for you and *ON TOP* of you lending hands and *feet*
they are the ones who you could count on for reminding you of beautiful moments especially the not so beautiful ones.

yes, friends, you can live with them, and you sure as hell can not live without them.

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notice:
i might never write in this blog again, i dont know.
there is just too much toxicity in my soul, i just can not see through... i can not see people, i can not hear them, i can not feel.

Sextalk

ooh baby, yes, pound me harder!
uh man you're sooooooo tight!
mm you're the best woman i ever had, you're ...
yes stud, ooh you're stallion! you're the....

oh you'd love that you guys, wouldn't you?
no i am talking about sexual conversations, sexual education and sexual illiteracy -which i am totally against-.
the other day i was at botany class, and before that i was extremely shocked by the fact that STD'S could be transmitted even with the use of condoms and i couldn't keep it in actually.
so back to the topic, in class and when everyone was there, i waited until the doctor had free time, as he handed papers, allot of papers with not-so-witty remarks, i thought lets pop the question!
"Dr. Hany, is it true that condoms may not be 100% preventive, stopping STD's i mean?"
the doctor said that he'll answer me later, so i didn't give it much thought, i really thought he doesn't have time, so i gave him a break.
the lesson ended, and everyone was out except for myself, because i really wanted to know.
instead of him answering my question he said "this topic is not to be brought up with girls around", i gave him a look, and when he was frightened by my look, he answered my question.
when i said thanks and left, every one of the guys was waiting outside, and they gave me a huge lecture on how sex, STD's and condoms shouldn't be brought up in the presence of women.
over 100 girls gets raped yearly in Kuwait.
over 50 girls get raped, molested or assaulted by members of their of family members yearly.
over 500 girls don't know the fact that they lost their virginity when they were children, thus they get dumped, divorced, left out and even killed for the thought and the suspicion of adultery.
over 5000 women do not get orgasms, do not enjoy sexual behavior with their husbands nor even feel intimacy because of their illiteracy about sex, life and because of being abused.

when do we get to tell women about sex?
when do we care to lower the ratio of abuse and molestation?
when do we -Future Doctors- feel free to talk about sex?

why do you love me?

why do you always kiss me in the morning?
why do you make sure that i am covered at night?
why do you write me sweet notes?
why do you smell me and hold me tight?
why do you wipe of my tears when i cry?
why do you always say what's right?
why do you like to dress me up?
why do you never start up a fight?
why do you rub my feet when i come home tired?
why do you make love to me under the brightest light?
why do you think of me as if i'm your only family?
why do you cherish me more than sight?
why do you love me?

Please do it for me

in this life, we are gladly exposed to love, wither its thwarts our families, soul-mates, friends or even food and clothes, that love is a drug of choice to be frank, we all are addicted to love, wither we admit it or not.
we do many activities with the people we love, we eat, drink, talk, gather, shop and even have sexual intercourse's with them, we share our thoughts and secrets, laughs and tantrums, and in some situations, every single aspect of life.
sacrifices, that's what we also do for the people and the things we love...
some quite their jobs to get married, some change their style, their attitude and in some parts of the world - AND get this! - change their faith and religion!
absurd, one might say, in fact, that's what a single person, a loner might say, but the truth and the reality of the things we do for our loved ones, is fascinatingly shocking!
now, I've been in a couple of relationships, those relationships changed me, molded me and in some situations, Upgraded me.
I was never bothered to "tweak" myself for my significant other, wither it was hard or easy to do, I've always considered listening to her, and give her the benefit of the doubt, because sometimes, people as you to change, because they love you and want you to get better, but what bothered me is the ... "please do it for me"...
the "please do it for me"  is a phrase commonly used when the other party asks for something that might not make you better nor upgrade you, in fact it might even make you worse.
I've made allot of "please do it for me", and I've done them with a real smile on my face.. well most of the time.
I know, some of you are wondering, haven't you used a "please do it for me" before, and my comeback would be, yes I've done that, numerously!
but the difference is, I never, and I promise you, never! asked for something that might make my other half worse, because when I use this phrase, its simply for a small situation, like meeting a friend that my partner doesn't like, or going to a rave, an alternative rock concert, a museum, a benefit, a poem recital, I promise you and I am sure about the promise, because I ask the person I am with about the usage of that phrase.
on the other hand, I must admit and be true, the person I am with now, made allot of sacrifices without me asking, made sure to tweak and upgrade himself, just to make sure I am comfortable, well ... sometimes, but the good thing is that it comes from him.
now back to our topic, isn't it really annoying?
please do it for me!
if it has no beneficial purpose to both parties, I do not agree of using it, and I simply reject it, because it might lead to a very lonely road.