i'm social, i guess, i mean i know many people, i hang out with allot of peeps, i tend to be at the rather cool parties sometimes, which leave the hideous awful ones for most of the time ;), i eat out with friends, chill and smoke up with a few.
but like so many others i tend to choose one group to... stick with, kinda like wolves in a pack... well most likely goats in a herd now that i think about ut!
i tend to believe my... pack!
i have a certian trust when it comes around them, so when my "friends" said baby s. get a Black berry we'd bbm and stay in touch when you're in cairo, omg that would be awesome, you would have to spend much to communicate with us, no need for emails, just zap! and u tell us whats going on and we tell you, OMG OMG OMG! etc... etc...!
terns out... its a loud of crap!
see i found out when you are not in the same region as your fellow goats, the goats dont communicate much with you, they either envy you for what you have or they replace you with a mediocere version of you, who honestly, look worse, talk trash and seriously seriously in need to gain a prospective about them selves, cuase having a beer gut is not sexy at all!
now, what spawned this topic is the fact that i was having drinks with an old friend last weeks, he's a tele-marketer, rather well known in the arab world, not by face but by name, he told me about how he traveled from kuwait to london to study marketing and ideology - something that to this day i can't possibly comprehend! -, and how he felt alone even though he knew about 700 people and he was out all night.
i jumped in and said that it might be because he was single, but he gave me that look, that made me reliese.... i'm single and thats not a reason to feel alone!
he told me that his feeling was because of the fact that the people who he thought we're real companions werent at all for real, explaining further more, he told me that they stayed the same, they got in touch but he found that when worse comes to worst they wouldnt stick up to him, they would just pep talk him, and idea we certainly both agreed on is that... they were not worth it.
a marlboro light later and an espresso got us to the point that real friends are the one who you start your friendship at childhood, school and after college.
and he didnt explain more becuase we had to abrubtly change the subject when his date arrived but i got to thinking...
was it true?
well... yes!
in a way, people who know you from childhood got accostomed to you and undertood your behaviour, people in school were forced to see you everyday, unlike people in college, and after college, work wise and social life wise, no one will be forced to be with you unless they wanted to.
that doesnt mean one has to wait untill after college to bond with someone and become real friends, because many have real friends in the periods we exluded, but it makes sense and it is simply understandable to me.
now i'm not saying that the all friends i have now wont last or whatever, but currently, most of them are not worth my time, i spend my time with 3 people now, and we go along will, having known them for a year now and we dont have much trouble spending time together.
instead of fighting over something we have a healthy argument, which is absolutly nicer than yelling and screeching, maybe its becuase they're well educated and have good self asteam...
maybe!
but i gotta tell ya!
this BFFFF doesnt really appeal to me any more, i like an F, suits me better, and a hella of allot more decent than the b triple double f's!
