My Jams This Week

i dont know why i am getting addicted to a couple of songs this week...
here's the songs that i like, i hope you guys back me up with them:



Natalia Kills - Zombie
she is everything rihanna is dying to be on rated r, personally this song is on loop on my ipod!



Angels Cry - Ft. Ne-Yo
i just love a power ballad, especially when mariah's vocals are used.


Lentil
this song is called lentil! now, her soaring vocals is a deep proof that she's been through what she's singing about!



Blah Blah Blah
Ke$ha Ft. 3OH!3, this girl is so bad ass, i am also in love with her songs take it off and backstabber, ooh and her name is ke-sha, not keesha!

Oooh and by the way, i found these links online, i did not upload them and i do not own anything regarding them, so if the companies wanna take the links down, its their choice, and this is for promo purpouses only :)

how to get ready for a date? "men"

ok boys, we've all been there, there is nothing to be ashamed of, sometimes going on a date can be extremly stressful, no matter how hot or cute you are...
so here's the pointers you need to follow after you ask the lady out on a date:

• Be a gentleman: open the door, stand up when she leaves the table, pay for coffee/food, take her hand when she is decending a ladder or a sidewalk, do not raise your voice, never embaress her, be civil and show that you are a real man.


• Dress to Impress: wearing your worn out shorts and your spotted shirt may be the normal thing to do when you're picking up the dry cleans or when your walking your dog, but it is not acceptable on a date that you are really looking forward to, a casual wear can be very nice too if the date wasnt so dress coded if you know what i mean, keep in mind also that its not what your wearing it is the way you wear it so.. be confident and work it!


• Shave... I mean SHAVE!: if your back/neck hair maybe exposed from what your wearing, shave it, better yet wax it, it is utterly discusting when you have filthy back hair or neck hair, also, your ears... yes you heard me, your ears and nose! trim 'em down guys! but stay away from your chest hair, women like it, it affirms that you are a man to them... facial hair is a matter of choice, if you look like prince charming without it, then shave, but if you look like shaved cat... i think you should keep it, sometimes a dirty look is very handsome on a man, i like it on me so i always go with it.


• your breathe: minty fresh is never a mess, careful about your breathe gentlemen, brush your teeth and floss, mouth wash, rinse and repeat ooh baby you'll be neat! a trick i learned ages ago is to use an apple, eat an apple before your date and your breathe will be inviting for the next 4 hours... trust me on this, been on enough dates to master a trick or two!


• topics: stay away from religeon, politics and whatever hot topics your regeon has, no need to talk about palastine and may u just say zip it when it comes to your political beleifs, maybe be give your view in one word, like "i'm a democrate, liberal or whatever" but seriously man, it is either a conflict springer or a yawner! and we all know what religeon does in a date... so i'll keep away from that eh?


• Don't be a radio/Don't Be a Shrink: now women are drawn to a good listener, but really annoyed with a shrink, most women have shrinks so there is no need for a shrink who wants to do them, and oh i don't need to stress on the don't be a radio deal, we all hate the none stop talkers, even when we are none stop talkers.


• bodily functions and ticks: wont talk much here, dont fart or purb, dont pick your nose nore your ear, dont push the food on your fork with your fingers, dont eat of her plate and never NEVER! use the bathroom and not wash your hands... some women just know... they just do.


• final advice: be yourself, be a gentelman, dont cup a feel, dont stress a good night french, a good night smile or a handshake is ok!, if she leans in thats another story and for my friends who are outside the arab world, if you do what i told you... heavy chance you might get lucky ;)

update me if you try it! ladies... your turn is coming ;p

parental issues

i dont get, why do people get married and have kids if they are going to fuck them up?

it feels like as if the parents moral goal in life is to see how many complexes can they inflect on their children.

all they do is critisize, bitch and whine...

your shorts are too short, your hair is too blown, your too skinny, your too hyper, your too sophisticated that you look like a show off, you dont have a heart, your careless, your have no morals, you have no values, what kind of a man are you?, why do you like music so much? why do you have posters in your room? why do you have iron patons? - i use it for self defence class, get off my ass! - why do you read so much?



omg!

they dont quit!

yesterday i was sitting with my father, and we got into discussing college, i stated my favorite subject and i lightly complained about a professor, all i know is i was talking one minute and the other i was blindsided by my father screaming at me telling me i am the only person who complains about college and all his friends' kids are flying A students...



i was just shocked, i complained about one professor! i have 12 professors who teach me 7 subjects... 11 out of 12 isnt such a bad percentage, we all face difficulties in college thats no big deal..

i decided to shut it, zip it and ignore it!

now, since i've came back to kuwait for my vacation... i did not stay away from the house, i kept put and i stuck to my ground, didnt party didnt go on smoking meetings, i kust went for a quick dinner or lunch and came back home to read books and listen to music, soak up my home and refresh myself, yesterday though my friends, firasr, naser and tareq, told me it would be nice if we had a cigirink, so i bought a pack of marlboro lights and set my way off to 360, we did that... and we talked for about 7 hours since i havent seen them in 4 months.



i came home at 5 in the morning which was a typical thing to do if i was on a vacation and nothing to do, and the moment i walked in all i saw was daddy man huffin and puffin at me being careless with no perpous in life and no aim...

helllllll to the no!
and then he was all like why do you have too many friends and why do you have too many people in your life!
again people, a helll to the a no!!!!

personally, i was such an angel for a week and i got the devil out - kind of! - for one night, i am 20 years old, i am a dental med student and heck all your siblings wish they had kids like me!!

regardless, parents keep on picking about everything, they think they know everything!
and yes i know that we are all kindsa nasty too but man, enough is enough sometimes!

i decided to take a vow of silence... but i kinda cant do it now, you know coz i wanna have fun with my vacation :p, but mind you sir i will take it soon! and all hell will break loss!
well not neccesseraly but eh! who cares ;p

any way, thanks for letting me vent! and oh people who are emailing me from cairo, i'm back in kuwait for a while, kisses!

Anouk - Lost

Anouk Teeuwe (born April 8, 1975) is a Dutch singer, professionally known as Anouk, born on April 8, 1975, in The Hague, Netherlands.

Anouk's interest in music began because her mother was a blues singer. Anouk initially sang at weddings and parties with the band Shotgun Wedding, a coupla things happened, now bada bing bada boom, the world was introduced to her.

now, i was introduced to anouk about a two years ago, when someone very close to my heart emailed me a very sad goodbye, having to migrate to the states to start a real life and do what she always dreamed of.


the song is now very well known to me, just like a part of my lifes' anatomy, you can sesne how geniunly anouk is taking a ride on this emotional rollercoaster, with her long sighs, shouts and high notes...

this is why i beleive in music, this is why i get tangled up with melodic lyrics and rhythmic beats...





I Found this link for the song, and this is the cd quality version, but i appreciate the live version more:
Anouk - Lost
To Buy Her CD "Hotel New York":
Hotel New York

Gossip

- i taked about this before, but today there's another twist -

its what you do when you're with your friends, when you're with your family, doctor, neighbour...
its what you do with almost.. Almost everyone...
as flawed humans we tend to love talking about other, throwing your casual insult, your typical ditch and your not so slippery freudian slip.
but... we tend to morph into raging bitchs when anyone says somthing about us.

i wont be so self richeous and sit her talking about how i dont gossip, because i fucking gossip like a depressed houseife who's cheating on her husband with the schools' celibacy club president who's about fifteen years old younger than her.

but you see, i have certain guide rules, i mean i dont gossip your misory, i just... transfer your news into another mutual friend, and in mutual friend i mean a real friend who we have in common, not some crazy assed mother fucker who works in dental cafeteria whom you pass by every day ever so politly and buy your coffee.

moving on, i'm an easy target for gossip, thats why my hair is too huge LOL, any way, so people gossip about me, which is normal and we wont talk about that, but when people gossip with me about other... well... here's an issue!

i never really cared much about the girl with the snaggle tooth if she's getting more action than the whole class, i mean there isnt any law against snagle teeth, plus the guys in my uni would dive head first in any invagination, even if its a cows booty chopped and hung...

i never really cared for "x"'s girlfriend and seriously, the bit about her being gassy while they made out after eating mcdonalds is not a brighter addition intelectual knowledge.

one piece of good gossip is about professor hedaya and how she was cuaght feeling up a girls breast... i always thought she was a dyke... it was really nice to talk shit about her!

i know allot of secrets, and i never share them, when ever i'm told a secret it goes away and fades, like like it was never told, so gossiping secrets is not really something i enjoy...

and to be frank gossiping always puts people in trouble, so i tend to preferf open chat circles with my friends, i mean why talk about it behind the person if the person himself can tell us and we can publicly humiliate/support/DEEEEPLY HUMILIATE him?

one more last thing...
we had a guy at our college, who calls him self "the hose" well, the hose always talks shit about me, and i never bothered, but today a friend whom "the hose" wanted to screw for the longest time told me that when he saw her cleavage, his hose... kinda died :D
and its not really a hose its a long... stick, like a really long pencile!

poor hose guy!
and i hope i dont get my ass kicked tomorrow in class ;p!
ps: yall we gotta submit ower paper sheets for the crown research!!! dont tell me you didnt get this coz yall RSS to my posts!

Sleep - Halogen Remix

this song, sleep, is a B-side for the amazing band, garbage, sleep is a b-side for the single "Only Happy When It Rains"
this song is so mody, and the remix is modier!
it felt so great to listen to it at 4 am with it being 2c bellow zero with a nice spliff...
this song is awesome!
here you have the halogen remix ft. insomnia

Sleep [Halogen Remix][Ft. Insomnia]

community center

i told you guys that i am using someone, and that i am angry, plus that i'm betraying allot of my beliefs... well lets talk about it.
-ps: not sugar coating anything or over writing, just gonna post facts -

now the person i am using is "lutfi andabouri", he is a 39 yo man who works at the community center in little Cairo...

met him in a friends gathering after the film festival to watch certain un edited movies that didn't make it into the cut.

i commented on a scene in a movie where the guy steals for his mother, lutfi says that's very common at his work place.

i asked him what he does, he explained that he is the head of the rehab facility, i asked to intern and he said yes. and he added for free of course.

worked there for a week, saw many cases, mother who prostitutes, raped girls: by strangers, reliteves and mostly fathers, abused kids: mentally, sexually and physically, kids who go abandoned in deserts, in front of prayer places and blind children who were thrown in a ditch for a couple of days alone and hungry.

this center holds about 400 cases, there is about 20 center in the capital, none-official and official.

i used those people to feel better with myself, i thought if i helped them i would feel comfort, but i was wrong, each case i saw filled me with hatred and rage, I've become very sick and angry, and after one week i walked out in them.

i am angry at myself, i am depressed, i am sick and tiered of this bullshit and the state of mind people are in.

my finals have been delayed so i have to study, i need to put this on hold...
i can't even put a sentence together, i am so speechless... its taking a toll on me.

new agenda

haavent posted anything, i have many things to say, i will finish my final tonight and tell you all about it.

i'm using someone, i'm betraying allot of my beleifs... so i need to tell yall bout it