United State of Pop (Blame It on the Pop)
This is a mashaup thats been floating online for a while, people seemed to like it and asked for it to be posted, it doesnt do much for me though ;(
United State of Pop (Blame It on the Pop)
crazy obssesed freak much?... #9
have you ever met someone and he or she is all up your business?
wanting to know everything about you, giving you all their time, worrying about yoy, talking 24 hours a day to you?
showing you all the intrests in the world?
and when you get intrested in them too, they become crazy obsessive and seriously moody if you didnt call or talk to them?
they catch a case and start really flippin'...
i talk to this person on bb messenger, and we seem to have hit it of, we spoke for about 2 months i think?
daily messages and hours of conversations... we like the same movies the same music... kind of have much in common...
once i went to a party, and i told him i missed someone, i'm currently in a relationship so we often spoke about it, and really i missed that girl like crazy, and even though there was 40 people in this party, i didnt wanna hang with anyone, it was a nice private pool xmass party...
the music was a selection of my favourite house mixes, the food and the drinks were great...
i just missed that girl, so i told him that and he's like stop this crap and go enjoy the party
so i stayed up at the party for over 12 hours - it was a long ass party! - and i kinda left early coz i dont like to party more than 5 hours, my phone died so i didnt recharge it when i got home and i slept, i woke up around 5 pm, and recharged it, then i find a couple of bbm's from him:
1)hi
2)hello
3)shfeek - whats wrong? -
4) are you ok?
5) i'm worried, bbm me!
when i saw it i i immediatly bbmed and talked to him, all he did was give me attitude and say/hint that its billshit.
i told him i didnt even talk to my mom - who also smsed - yet, so i'm serious my phone died!
he sends me an ok, then deletes me off of bbm, removes me from all contact and disappear.
crazy much?
i means seriously, how retarded one could be at this age? when you 27 ur suppost to grow up and be all sane and centered!
i told my friend who hosted the party and the moment i was done he busrted into luaghter saying "only the freaks u know baby s! only the freak u know!!!"
is it true?
i dont get it! i honestly need help with this!
wanting to know everything about you, giving you all their time, worrying about yoy, talking 24 hours a day to you?
showing you all the intrests in the world?
and when you get intrested in them too, they become crazy obsessive and seriously moody if you didnt call or talk to them?
they catch a case and start really flippin'...
i talk to this person on bb messenger, and we seem to have hit it of, we spoke for about 2 months i think?
daily messages and hours of conversations... we like the same movies the same music... kind of have much in common...
once i went to a party, and i told him i missed someone, i'm currently in a relationship so we often spoke about it, and really i missed that girl like crazy, and even though there was 40 people in this party, i didnt wanna hang with anyone, it was a nice private pool xmass party...
the music was a selection of my favourite house mixes, the food and the drinks were great...
i just missed that girl, so i told him that and he's like stop this crap and go enjoy the party
so i stayed up at the party for over 12 hours - it was a long ass party! - and i kinda left early coz i dont like to party more than 5 hours, my phone died so i didnt recharge it when i got home and i slept, i woke up around 5 pm, and recharged it, then i find a couple of bbm's from him:
1)hi
2)hello
3)shfeek - whats wrong? -
4) are you ok?
5) i'm worried, bbm me!
when i saw it i i immediatly bbmed and talked to him, all he did was give me attitude and say/hint that its billshit.
i told him i didnt even talk to my mom - who also smsed - yet, so i'm serious my phone died!
he sends me an ok, then deletes me off of bbm, removes me from all contact and disappear.
crazy much?
i means seriously, how retarded one could be at this age? when you 27 ur suppost to grow up and be all sane and centered!
i told my friend who hosted the party and the moment i was done he busrted into luaghter saying "only the freaks u know baby s! only the freak u know!!!"
is it true?
i dont get it! i honestly need help with this!
Like A Star
Just Like A Star Across My Sky...
Just Like An Angel Of The Page...
Just Like A song In My Heart...
Just Like Oil On My Hands...
Corinne Bailey Rae (born Corinne Jacqueline Bailey on 26 February 1979) is an English singer-songwriter and guitarist who released her debut album Corinne Bailey Rae in February 2006. Rae was named the number-one predicted breakthrough act of 2006 in an annual BBC poll of music critics, Sound of 2006, She became only the fourth female British act in history to have her first album debut at number one.[citation needed] Rae was nominated for Grammy Awards and BRIT Awards, and has won two MOBO Awards and an Album Of The Year Grammy for her work as an featured artist in Herbie Hancock's River: The Joni Letters. Rae was married to fellow musician, Jason Rae from 2001 until his death in 2008. Rae will release her second album,The Sea on February 2, 2010, after a hiatus of two years. The new album is produced by the duo Steve Brown and Steve Chrisanthou, who produced her debut in 2006...
her voice is just enchanted.... and it most certainly will take you places, i remembered her today when i woke up... i had a shower and a bottle of baby oil fell on my hands... i started staring at the oil and then out of the blue i was singing corinne's song...
Like A Star... this song is absolutely amazing!
and her whole album is breath taking... i simply cant wait for her next effort...
she is a genius!
Like A Star
to BUY her album:
Corinne Bailey Rae
Sorry/Merry Xmass/The Shit!
sorry i havent been posting you guys, i had so many mid-terms!
jesus moses allah god mohammad! they were plenty!
i was on overdirve and redbull overdose!
i was like a severe adhd with too much carb input! - remind me to tell you about some i dated who had adhd! -, any way i'mma post some stuff now :d!
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Merry Xmass Yallllllll!!!
gonna be having xmass dinner at DJ friend ahmed... siging xmass carols and teasing our guests with a preview of the remixes we made for the "absolute" new years party hosted by Absolute vodka, info is hooked here later!
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Now for the main topic.... THE SHIT! *SNAP SNAP*
so, i dont really go all high maintenance on my ass, i mean i wake up, get whatever's clean on the shelf, wear it, and leave the house...
i over shower and over brush my teeth though, i'm super clean but i dont bleach, tweese, pluck and shave 24 hours a day... i shave once a week and thats it!
but if i have finals i tend to let go of my beard... let ot go in alllll directions possible, but i still look decent... i mean... you know johny dep when he's all beardy and scary like, you can see traces of good looks down there eh?
ohhh fuck off, i can see u smirking abou the johny depp thing, i can look better than him, i mean... with the right look and all... i guess... i hope :S
any way!!
so i went to the oral histology lab and mind you, its officially begings at 12:25 pm, but the doctors dont come until 1:00 pm, it has been like that for the past 5 weeks, so we all get in in about 12:55 or 50....
so this week, the head doctor, the teacher's assistant is what they call this kind of person in the "biz"! was giving the lecture instead of the other female doc who always gives the class, so he began at 12:45...
i arrived at 12:55 exactly, i knocked and came in, i requested an entry, he said "your here now? did you want us to wait for your *highness*?" then he continued adressing the class.
i sucked it up coz god knows if i didnt i would bring this shit down on lil' miss thang over there, so i requested to go in again, and i explained that this class always starts at 1 pm, he jumped all up in my business and said "its not my problem i start at 12:45, now its 1 pm" then he went back adressing the class.
i was like HELL TO THE NO!
now i had a run in with that piece of shit before, last year, i was sitting at the back of the class coz i was downing too many stingers the night before, so... u guys know the drill!
so he was asking the student up in the front row about something and then he asked me, i said i didnt know and he said "you know you think your too good looking and that the world revolves around your hair, just becuase you think your hot that doesnt mean you are"...
i didnt answer i gave him a dirty look, he git all purple and green, the student looked at him with disgrace some luaghed and giggled at him, a kid mummbled "what does his looks have to do with the class"
i starred him down.
i didnt say a word, and i thought about it.
you are commenting on my looks and telling me i look ugly?
you're a 300 pounds, triple chinned, truck tire lipped enlarged todler, your nose is extremly suitable to become an air plane landing slide, it wont be a hard task braiding your nose hair since its longer than your own over gelled wet hair, i think i heard the echo of a couple of kids from your jumbo ears, i hope no one is lost in there, you have 7 boobs, each boob has a baby boob of its own, for all i'm concerned you might be a serial killer who hides his victims between the folds of his skin, and you are telling me i am ugly?
bitch please!
you are 300 pounds of genetically modefied crap!
extra body, extra volume and extra smell BABY!
just becuase i didnt answer you academic question that doesnt give you the right to comment on me socially... that is not your business!
now that piece of shit didn't comment or look me in the eye again, but damn is he waiting for me to slip!
over questioning and putting his nose in almost everything!
wtf? get a life cunt, don't mooch over ours!
and you know whats the stinger in this whole extravaganza?
he thinks he's hot!
i wont go on with this, you think about it!
jesus moses allah god mohammad! they were plenty!
i was on overdirve and redbull overdose!
i was like a severe adhd with too much carb input! - remind me to tell you about some i dated who had adhd! -, any way i'mma post some stuff now :d!
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Merry Xmass Yallllllll!!!
gonna be having xmass dinner at DJ friend ahmed... siging xmass carols and teasing our guests with a preview of the remixes we made for the "absolute" new years party hosted by Absolute vodka, info is hooked here later!
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Now for the main topic.... THE SHIT! *SNAP SNAP*
so, i dont really go all high maintenance on my ass, i mean i wake up, get whatever's clean on the shelf, wear it, and leave the house...
i over shower and over brush my teeth though, i'm super clean but i dont bleach, tweese, pluck and shave 24 hours a day... i shave once a week and thats it!
but if i have finals i tend to let go of my beard... let ot go in alllll directions possible, but i still look decent... i mean... you know johny dep when he's all beardy and scary like, you can see traces of good looks down there eh?
ohhh fuck off, i can see u smirking abou the johny depp thing, i can look better than him, i mean... with the right look and all... i guess... i hope :S
any way!!
so i went to the oral histology lab and mind you, its officially begings at 12:25 pm, but the doctors dont come until 1:00 pm, it has been like that for the past 5 weeks, so we all get in in about 12:55 or 50....
so this week, the head doctor, the teacher's assistant is what they call this kind of person in the "biz"! was giving the lecture instead of the other female doc who always gives the class, so he began at 12:45...
i arrived at 12:55 exactly, i knocked and came in, i requested an entry, he said "your here now? did you want us to wait for your *highness*?" then he continued adressing the class.
i sucked it up coz god knows if i didnt i would bring this shit down on lil' miss thang over there, so i requested to go in again, and i explained that this class always starts at 1 pm, he jumped all up in my business and said "its not my problem i start at 12:45, now its 1 pm" then he went back adressing the class.
i was like HELL TO THE NO!
now i had a run in with that piece of shit before, last year, i was sitting at the back of the class coz i was downing too many stingers the night before, so... u guys know the drill!
so he was asking the student up in the front row about something and then he asked me, i said i didnt know and he said "you know you think your too good looking and that the world revolves around your hair, just becuase you think your hot that doesnt mean you are"...
i didnt answer i gave him a dirty look, he git all purple and green, the student looked at him with disgrace some luaghed and giggled at him, a kid mummbled "what does his looks have to do with the class"
i starred him down.
i didnt say a word, and i thought about it.
you are commenting on my looks and telling me i look ugly?
you're a 300 pounds, triple chinned, truck tire lipped enlarged todler, your nose is extremly suitable to become an air plane landing slide, it wont be a hard task braiding your nose hair since its longer than your own over gelled wet hair, i think i heard the echo of a couple of kids from your jumbo ears, i hope no one is lost in there, you have 7 boobs, each boob has a baby boob of its own, for all i'm concerned you might be a serial killer who hides his victims between the folds of his skin, and you are telling me i am ugly?
bitch please!
you are 300 pounds of genetically modefied crap!
extra body, extra volume and extra smell BABY!
just becuase i didnt answer you academic question that doesnt give you the right to comment on me socially... that is not your business!
now that piece of shit didn't comment or look me in the eye again, but damn is he waiting for me to slip!
over questioning and putting his nose in almost everything!
wtf? get a life cunt, don't mooch over ours!
and you know whats the stinger in this whole extravaganza?
he thinks he's hot!
i wont go on with this, you think about it!
Medina - You & I
Medina (born Andrea Fuentealba Valbak; November 3, 1982 in Aarhus, Denmark) is a Danish-Chilean dance, R&B and hip hop singer and songwriter, she has this amazing song that is on my mind for the past 3 weeks, heard first in a club in cairo with Ellyana DeGrassi - hate ur guts bitch ;p - and i can not! get it outta my head!
i bought the cd, which has a limited edtion version that contains this single...
you oughtta buy the cd and check it out yourself!
to hear the song, check out the link here, a blogger friend send me this link yesterday:
Medina - You & I
And check out the video:
i bought the cd, which has a limited edtion version that contains this single...
you oughtta buy the cd and check it out yourself!
to hear the song, check out the link here, a blogger friend send me this link yesterday:
Medina - You & I
And check out the video:
Artist Introduction: Esthero
ok so i thought i would introduce you to some of my favourite artists, so lets begin with esthero... one of my all time fav gals!
this is off of wikipedia: Esthero (born Jenny-Bea Englishman, December 23, 1978 in Stratford, Ontario) is a Canadian singer-songwriter who currently lives in Los Angeles, California. The name Esthero, pronounced [ɛsˈtɛroʊ] es-TAIR-oh, refers both to the singer and formerly to the two-person team of herself and producer Doc. She claims to have got the name by combining the name of the heroine (Esther) and last line ("If I am to be the hero, then I cannot fly from darkness.") of the movie from Sylvia Plath's novel, 'The Bell Jar'.
Esthero's sound characteristically features her voice over a mix of mellow bass lines, jazzy trumpets, Spanish guitar and hip-hop. She is sometimes compared to artists Björk, Portishead and Sade. Later artists who count Esthero among their influences include Res, Fergie and fellow Canadian Nelly Furtado.
Esthero's brother, Jason Englishman, is also a musician.
now the reason i love esthero is: she is so deep, with vocals that will go straight to your core, i was blown off by how talented she is, with songs like, heaven sent, i dirve alone, windmills of your mind, lounge, superheroes, wikked lil' girls and O.G Bitch... esthero really raised the bar for me...
now i want to post all live video's so you'd understand my state of mind and why i am In Love With Her!
now a couple of studio versions :D
And Her Mater Pieces!!!
this is off of wikipedia: Esthero (born Jenny-Bea Englishman, December 23, 1978 in Stratford, Ontario) is a Canadian singer-songwriter who currently lives in Los Angeles, California. The name Esthero, pronounced [ɛsˈtɛroʊ] es-TAIR-oh, refers both to the singer and formerly to the two-person team of herself and producer Doc. She claims to have got the name by combining the name of the heroine (Esther) and last line ("If I am to be the hero, then I cannot fly from darkness.") of the movie from Sylvia Plath's novel, 'The Bell Jar'.
Esthero's sound characteristically features her voice over a mix of mellow bass lines, jazzy trumpets, Spanish guitar and hip-hop. She is sometimes compared to artists Björk, Portishead and Sade. Later artists who count Esthero among their influences include Res, Fergie and fellow Canadian Nelly Furtado.
Esthero's brother, Jason Englishman, is also a musician.
now the reason i love esthero is: she is so deep, with vocals that will go straight to your core, i was blown off by how talented she is, with songs like, heaven sent, i dirve alone, windmills of your mind, lounge, superheroes, wikked lil' girls and O.G Bitch... esthero really raised the bar for me...
now i want to post all live video's so you'd understand my state of mind and why i am In Love With Her!
now a couple of studio versions :D
And Her Mater Pieces!!!
Johnny Depp
Well known actor and heart throb Johnny Depp has stared in many diverse roles. I'm pretty sure every girlfriend I've had wouldn't pass up the chance to be with this guy. On November 19th 1999 Johnny Depp got his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.His mother bought him a guitar when he was twelve. As a guitar player, Depp has recorded a solo album, played slide guitar on the Oasis song "Fade In-Out" from Be Here Now in 1997 as well as on "Fade Away" the "Warchild Version" b-side of the "Don't Go Away" single. He also played acoustic guitar in the movie "Chocolat" and on the soundtrack to "Once Upon aTime in Mexico". He is friends with The Pogues' Shane MacGowan and performed on MacGowan's first solo album. Depp was also a member of P, a group featuring Butthole Surfers singer Gibby Haynes and Red Hot Chili Peppers bassist Flea. He appeared in the music video called "Into the Great Wide Open" by Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers as well. Busy guy...
John Christopher Depp II has worked along with Tim Burton in seven differen't movies. Films featuring Depp made near 2.3 billion in the united states box office and a whopping 4.8 billion worldwide.
Depp was born in Owensboro, Kentucky son of Betty Sue Palmer and John Christopher Depp Sr. He has one brother and two sisters Danny,Christie and Debbie.
John had two children Daughter Lily-Rose Melody Depp was born May 27, 1999, and son John "Jack" Christopher Depp III was born April 9, 2002.
Anal Much?
why is everyone emailing about how to have anal sex with indian chicks?
i dont get it, what do i look like?
see i dont do indian chick!
with all do respect, indian women are beautiful the have this mystique look and exotic features and the long hard to resist hair...
but anal oh la bumbai is seriously not my thing.
i never saw the appeal in curry fudge...
nor i'm into any extra spiced up fudge, you see fugde is not whats on my top list...
and the guys at school BBM me or IM thinking i'm some kind of samantha anal hot line!
i swear if i get one more sms about how to do anal without the chocolate surprises i will stuff my throat with over used panties for an obese belly dancing arabian princess panties, one with extra addtional glitter!
i'm tiered of saying "tell her to use an enema" you know how creepy that sounds when someone over hears you?
once a guy called naif told me he didnt know if that spot on his sex hypo was a moll or a dodo!
a dodo?
disgusting!
and then he started to tell me how it looked like a lentil!
maaaan!!
why do you have to ruin my day and a very popular seed!
the horror!
you, i can't believe this, but i wish i would go back to the social nobody who kept to himself and listen to his ipod, all this bullshit started when i walked into blue ribbon with that slut who just wanted free drinks...
i wish i kept to myself!
you know what, i'mma says this once and for all!
use an enema, go slow, lube lube lube, anal go with condoms, NO VASELINE!, and some hannah montana music!
now BITE ME!
i dont get it, what do i look like?
see i dont do indian chick!
with all do respect, indian women are beautiful the have this mystique look and exotic features and the long hard to resist hair...
but anal oh la bumbai is seriously not my thing.
i never saw the appeal in curry fudge...
nor i'm into any extra spiced up fudge, you see fugde is not whats on my top list...
and the guys at school BBM me or IM thinking i'm some kind of samantha anal hot line!
i swear if i get one more sms about how to do anal without the chocolate surprises i will stuff my throat with over used panties for an obese belly dancing arabian princess panties, one with extra addtional glitter!
i'm tiered of saying "tell her to use an enema" you know how creepy that sounds when someone over hears you?
once a guy called naif told me he didnt know if that spot on his sex hypo was a moll or a dodo!
a dodo?
disgusting!
and then he started to tell me how it looked like a lentil!
maaaan!!
why do you have to ruin my day and a very popular seed!
the horror!
you, i can't believe this, but i wish i would go back to the social nobody who kept to himself and listen to his ipod, all this bullshit started when i walked into blue ribbon with that slut who just wanted free drinks...
i wish i kept to myself!
you know what, i'mma says this once and for all!
use an enema, go slow, lube lube lube, anal go with condoms, NO VASELINE!, and some hannah montana music!
now BITE ME!
Cover Songs
A cover song is a song performed by someone else besides the original artist, it doesnt necesseraly mean its better than the original, but sometimes It's HELLA GOOD!
now, my favorite cover songs are usually by lily allen and garbage - bow to the rockness -, sia does and amazing job on "I Go To Sleep" posted earlier, and paramores redhead queen.
john lennon, oasis, no doubt, garbage, lily allen, squeeze, sting, the clash, britney, michael and many many others are performers who's songs were covered, shows like glee are famous for doing it, but its either hit or mess, never in between, they did a great job in defying gravity and don't stop believing - which i dont like much, i personally perferf mercy and rehab -, but they did an awful job on many songs, one being one of my ultimate favs "smile - lily allen".
here's a couple of covered songs, listen to them and see if you like the original more.
If You Like Them, Be Sure to purchase:
1-Eva Cassidy's CD'S
2-Punk Goes... CD's
3-Oasis, lily allen, garbage, Sia CD's because i can't get enough of them!
sia - gimme more
http://www.4shared.com/get/106823897/65dd80d8/Sia_-_Gimme_Gimme_More.html
marie digby - umberella
www.mediafire.com/?sbhin3gkycy
lily allen - dont get me wrong
www.mediafire.com/?nymoiqdajmg
Wonderwall - Cat Power
www.mediafire.com/?jtlymzmwmji
use somebody - paramore
www.mediafire.com/?domiteymyzo
milow - ayo technology
www.mediafire.com/?mjtue4mymnm
heartless - the fray
www.mediafire.com/?ucm2tjimdy5
no doubt - its my life
www.mediafire.com/?mzimqzrexyt
alvin and the chipmunks
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=72WYVXT7
anya marina - whatever you like
http://www.mediafire.com/?tei3nm4mdth
and my absolute favorite these couple of days :D
Lily Allen - Naive
www.mediafire.com/?21znthu2g5y
Note: Songs here were posted by other blogs, i take no legal rights for any of them and... most of them are live cover so freely ditrebuted among fans :).
now, my favorite cover songs are usually by lily allen and garbage - bow to the rockness -, sia does and amazing job on "I Go To Sleep" posted earlier, and paramores redhead queen.
john lennon, oasis, no doubt, garbage, lily allen, squeeze, sting, the clash, britney, michael and many many others are performers who's songs were covered, shows like glee are famous for doing it, but its either hit or mess, never in between, they did a great job in defying gravity and don't stop believing - which i dont like much, i personally perferf mercy and rehab -, but they did an awful job on many songs, one being one of my ultimate favs "smile - lily allen".
here's a couple of covered songs, listen to them and see if you like the original more.
If You Like Them, Be Sure to purchase:
1-Eva Cassidy's CD'S
2-Punk Goes... CD's
3-Oasis, lily allen, garbage, Sia CD's because i can't get enough of them!
sia - gimme more
http://www.4shared.com/get/106823897/65dd80d8/Sia_-_Gimme_Gimme_More.html
marie digby - umberella
www.mediafire.com/?sbhin3gkycy
lily allen - dont get me wrong
www.mediafire.com/?nymoiqdajmg
Wonderwall - Cat Power
www.mediafire.com/?jtlymzmwmji
use somebody - paramore
www.mediafire.com/?domiteymyzo
milow - ayo technology
www.mediafire.com/?mjtue4mymnm
heartless - the fray
www.mediafire.com/?ucm2tjimdy5
no doubt - its my life
www.mediafire.com/?mzimqzrexyt
alvin and the chipmunks
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=72WYVXT7
anya marina - whatever you like
http://www.mediafire.com/?tei3nm4mdth
and my absolute favorite these couple of days :D
Lily Allen - Naive
www.mediafire.com/?21znthu2g5y
Note: Songs here were posted by other blogs, i take no legal rights for any of them and... most of them are live cover so freely ditrebuted among fans :).
OMG! We R So BFF'S!
i'm social, i guess, i mean i know many people, i hang out with allot of peeps, i tend to be at the rather cool parties sometimes, which leave the hideous awful ones for most of the time ;), i eat out with friends, chill and smoke up with a few.
but like so many others i tend to choose one group to... stick with, kinda like wolves in a pack... well most likely goats in a herd now that i think about ut!
i tend to believe my... pack!
i have a certian trust when it comes around them, so when my "friends" said baby s. get a Black berry we'd bbm and stay in touch when you're in cairo, omg that would be awesome, you would have to spend much to communicate with us, no need for emails, just zap! and u tell us whats going on and we tell you, OMG OMG OMG! etc... etc...!
terns out... its a loud of crap!
see i found out when you are not in the same region as your fellow goats, the goats dont communicate much with you, they either envy you for what you have or they replace you with a mediocere version of you, who honestly, look worse, talk trash and seriously seriously in need to gain a prospective about them selves, cuase having a beer gut is not sexy at all!
now, what spawned this topic is the fact that i was having drinks with an old friend last weeks, he's a tele-marketer, rather well known in the arab world, not by face but by name, he told me about how he traveled from kuwait to london to study marketing and ideology - something that to this day i can't possibly comprehend! -, and how he felt alone even though he knew about 700 people and he was out all night.
i jumped in and said that it might be because he was single, but he gave me that look, that made me reliese.... i'm single and thats not a reason to feel alone!
he told me that his feeling was because of the fact that the people who he thought we're real companions werent at all for real, explaining further more, he told me that they stayed the same, they got in touch but he found that when worse comes to worst they wouldnt stick up to him, they would just pep talk him, and idea we certainly both agreed on is that... they were not worth it.
a marlboro light later and an espresso got us to the point that real friends are the one who you start your friendship at childhood, school and after college.
and he didnt explain more becuase we had to abrubtly change the subject when his date arrived but i got to thinking...
was it true?
well... yes!
in a way, people who know you from childhood got accostomed to you and undertood your behaviour, people in school were forced to see you everyday, unlike people in college, and after college, work wise and social life wise, no one will be forced to be with you unless they wanted to.
that doesnt mean one has to wait untill after college to bond with someone and become real friends, because many have real friends in the periods we exluded, but it makes sense and it is simply understandable to me.
now i'm not saying that the all friends i have now wont last or whatever, but currently, most of them are not worth my time, i spend my time with 3 people now, and we go along will, having known them for a year now and we dont have much trouble spending time together.
instead of fighting over something we have a healthy argument, which is absolutly nicer than yelling and screeching, maybe its becuase they're well educated and have good self asteam...
maybe!
but i gotta tell ya!
this BFFFF doesnt really appeal to me any more, i like an F, suits me better, and a hella of allot more decent than the b triple double f's!
but like so many others i tend to choose one group to... stick with, kinda like wolves in a pack... well most likely goats in a herd now that i think about ut!
i tend to believe my... pack!
i have a certian trust when it comes around them, so when my "friends" said baby s. get a Black berry we'd bbm and stay in touch when you're in cairo, omg that would be awesome, you would have to spend much to communicate with us, no need for emails, just zap! and u tell us whats going on and we tell you, OMG OMG OMG! etc... etc...!
terns out... its a loud of crap!
see i found out when you are not in the same region as your fellow goats, the goats dont communicate much with you, they either envy you for what you have or they replace you with a mediocere version of you, who honestly, look worse, talk trash and seriously seriously in need to gain a prospective about them selves, cuase having a beer gut is not sexy at all!
now, what spawned this topic is the fact that i was having drinks with an old friend last weeks, he's a tele-marketer, rather well known in the arab world, not by face but by name, he told me about how he traveled from kuwait to london to study marketing and ideology - something that to this day i can't possibly comprehend! -, and how he felt alone even though he knew about 700 people and he was out all night.
i jumped in and said that it might be because he was single, but he gave me that look, that made me reliese.... i'm single and thats not a reason to feel alone!
he told me that his feeling was because of the fact that the people who he thought we're real companions werent at all for real, explaining further more, he told me that they stayed the same, they got in touch but he found that when worse comes to worst they wouldnt stick up to him, they would just pep talk him, and idea we certainly both agreed on is that... they were not worth it.
a marlboro light later and an espresso got us to the point that real friends are the one who you start your friendship at childhood, school and after college.
and he didnt explain more becuase we had to abrubtly change the subject when his date arrived but i got to thinking...
was it true?
well... yes!
in a way, people who know you from childhood got accostomed to you and undertood your behaviour, people in school were forced to see you everyday, unlike people in college, and after college, work wise and social life wise, no one will be forced to be with you unless they wanted to.
that doesnt mean one has to wait untill after college to bond with someone and become real friends, because many have real friends in the periods we exluded, but it makes sense and it is simply understandable to me.
now i'm not saying that the all friends i have now wont last or whatever, but currently, most of them are not worth my time, i spend my time with 3 people now, and we go along will, having known them for a year now and we dont have much trouble spending time together.
instead of fighting over something we have a healthy argument, which is absolutly nicer than yelling and screeching, maybe its becuase they're well educated and have good self asteam...
maybe!
but i gotta tell ya!
this BFFFF doesnt really appeal to me any more, i like an F, suits me better, and a hella of allot more decent than the b triple double f's!
end of hiatus
each time i wrote, i had one more last thing to write, each time i said a word, i had one more last thing to say.
i had too much built in, i wanted to talk, i wanted to say whats wrong, i wanted to scream and say i was going crazy, i litrally thought i was crazy.
all i wanted is to hurt someone so bad that they'll forget their names and remember mine instead.
i had too much built in...
i tried talking to my friends and all they gave was the "its all going to be ok sweety" with the look of "dramatic much?" in their eyes.
i lost touch with many people, i've stopped being friends with allot of people, i gained the friendship of one or two, but i renewed and revived the friendship of one person, and honestly... it was worth it.
i didnt know how to begin, and i sure didnt know how to end or what to end with...
i lost track of who i am and what i meant to myself.
even when i looked in the mirror, i noticed that i've changed, i started to look worse...
my skin was dry out of life... i looked like a corpse... pale...
my hair got in touch with my depression, my eyes decided to tell everyone about my sleeping habbits and about the joy rides i took, my body numbed by all what that word means, no more come hither...
as the days passed by nothing resonated but the echo of emptyness...
i've reached the point where i've become nothing.
now i'm irrelevant to myself, trying to regain and sustain, hoping to go back and what i was and aim for a better version of myself.
i'm writing again but i dont know concentrate...
i hope you understand, i hope that you're not mad at me for not replying at your emails, i just needed time, and now... i'm going to post again, hoping to regain what ever sense i had, hoping to recognize myself and evolve.
i had too much built in, i wanted to talk, i wanted to say whats wrong, i wanted to scream and say i was going crazy, i litrally thought i was crazy.
all i wanted is to hurt someone so bad that they'll forget their names and remember mine instead.
i had too much built in...
i tried talking to my friends and all they gave was the "its all going to be ok sweety" with the look of "dramatic much?" in their eyes.
i lost touch with many people, i've stopped being friends with allot of people, i gained the friendship of one or two, but i renewed and revived the friendship of one person, and honestly... it was worth it.
i didnt know how to begin, and i sure didnt know how to end or what to end with...
i lost track of who i am and what i meant to myself.
even when i looked in the mirror, i noticed that i've changed, i started to look worse...
my skin was dry out of life... i looked like a corpse... pale...
my hair got in touch with my depression, my eyes decided to tell everyone about my sleeping habbits and about the joy rides i took, my body numbed by all what that word means, no more come hither...
as the days passed by nothing resonated but the echo of emptyness...
i've reached the point where i've become nothing.
now i'm irrelevant to myself, trying to regain and sustain, hoping to go back and what i was and aim for a better version of myself.
i'm writing again but i dont know concentrate...
i hope you understand, i hope that you're not mad at me for not replying at your emails, i just needed time, and now... i'm going to post again, hoping to regain what ever sense i had, hoping to recognize myself and evolve.
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