Sick thoughts.

Everything seem to be fair

Beside one thing only ...

I didn't choose to be alive ...

Whats so funny being lonely

Yes, I am thankful to God ...

My life is good and all ...

But what if I never existed

Wouldn't it be a better call?

I wouldn't be hanged by hope

Repeating the word soon

I wouldn't cry from inside

Whenever I look at the moon

I wouldn't have to hug my pillow

With tearing eyes and broken soul

I wouldn't be feeling so depressed

Whenever I rise then suddenly fall

I wouldn't have all this sick thoughts

I wouldn't run from myself so far away

I wouldn't see my future as a mystery

I wouldn't worry about the judgement day

I wouldn't have all this feelings...

In such a disgusting mechanical life

I wouldn't know the meaning of cruelty

I wouldn't be living in my own strife

I wouldn't fall in love with you

I wouldn't even have the ability to feel

I wouldn't have to see your beautiful face

In such a place so fake to be real

I wouldn't end up being who I am

An ill bird flying over a lightning storm

Such an expert seducer you are

Lucifer himself in a human form

You know when and how to bring me alive

From my disillusioned illogical death

But would you have a reason to bring me alive

When you already cursed me by giving me breath

By giving me a reason to become a reason

Of whom I am between hate and fear

By giving me a question to become a question

Of where I am between why and here

I am stuck inside your eyes

Cry me out ...!

I am choked in my anger

Someone release my shout ...!

By Vincent Valentine: 30/12/08, 4:40pm.

Hi there.

Hey, I just wanted to say...

"Hi there"

I missed you when I shouldnt

I guess I dont care

whats right or wrong

whats false or fair

life will bring you back to me

thats when I will launch my flare

announcing I love you..

Yes I swear...

you will see, soon when I wake up

from my mindless nightmare

life will bring you back to me

someday... somewhere...

we will meet again face to face

you will look at my eyes and stare

thats when I will take off my mask

and say... hi there

with a twisted smile

and my fingers between your hair

I will kiss your lips

and breathe your air

I will make you wanting me back

thats when I will dare...

to whisper in your ear; goodbye

from the echo of it, you will hear;

"I just wanted to say hi there".

Written date and time: 22/12/08 2:30am

Stu: Flight Attendant

thats what my friend stu wrote in his blog, i think it was copied from an email or something, but seriously, CHECK IT OUT!

An airline`s passenger cabin was being served by an obviously gay Flight Attendant, who seemed to put everyone in a good mood as he served them food and drinks.As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle and announced to the passengers, "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he`ll be landing the big scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your trays up, that would be super."On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed a well-dressed rather exotic looking woman hadn`t moved a muscle. "Perhaps you didn`t hear me over those big brute engines. I asked you to raise your trazy-poo, so the main man can pitty-pat us on the ground. She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called a Princess. I take orders from no one." To which the flight attendant replied, without missing a beat, "Well, sweet-cheeks, in my country, I`m called a Queen, so I out rank you. Tray-up, B!tch."

Just a lover.

There was never been a plan

I am neither a saint nor a holyman

I am just a lover...

Doing the best I can

Trying to identify who you are

A bless to my heart or visible scar

Moon itself in my sky...

Or just another shooting star

Trying to be wise and smart

To achieve this piece of art

It's the goal of my life...

To occupy your mind and heart

Without you I am a total freak

Without you there's a leak

Expelling out my energy...

Making me dizzy and weak

I am drained, living in thugs

I am falling, calling your hugs

I am addicted...

And you are my drugs

Push me to you, touch me in tender

Gather the pieces of our sunder

I am like a feather in a cyclone

With crashing clouds and thunder

I am like a tear drop in the ocean

Submerging the dream with emotion

Like a man taking his last breath...

Rising his hand for a potion

Like a book of secrets with no cover

Like an ancient chamber to discover

Like the oblivion in memories...

Like myself... just a lover.

Wriiten date and time: 15/12/08 2:20pm

Ahmedi: Difference Between P&P

Ahmedi, An online friend sent this to me, Seriously funny!

Here's an English lesson you're not likely to forget!
A young boy went up to his father and asked him, 'Dad, what is the difference between 'potentially' and 'realistically'?'

The father thought for a moment, then answered, 'Go ask your mother if she would sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars. Then ask your sister if she would sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars, and then ask your brother if he'd sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars. Come back and tell me what you learn from that.'

So the boy went to his mother and asked, 'Would you sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars?'

The mother replied, 'Of course I would! We could really use that money to fix up the house and send you kids to a great University!'

The boy then went to his sister and asked, 'Would you sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars?'

The girl replied, 'Oh my Gawd! I LOVE Brad Pitt I would sleep with him in a heartbeat, are you nuts?'

The boy then went to his brother and asked, 'Would you sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars?'

'Of course,' the brother replied. 'Do you know what a million bucks would buy?'

The boy pondered the answers for a few days and then went back to his dad.

His father asked him, 'Did you find out the difference between 'potentially' and 'realistically'?'

The boy replied, 'Yes, 'Potentially', you and I are sitting on three million dollars ...

But 'realistically', we're living with two hookers and a homo.

Post From Around The Web!

well, i'll be posting stuff people wrote, not mine at all, three topics that really cuaght my eye and thought they were funny!
so the next three posts will be sollai free material!
i hope you enjoy them as much as i did!

Leave me alone.

leave me alone if you dont mind

I dont anymore belong to mankind

I am now a monster cruel and blind

when I look at my face in the mirror

with blinded eyes I see henious power

I see vengeance I see damn horror

I've been calm and quiet for so long

dont tell me you slipped your tongue

dont tell me I've ever treated you wrong

dont you dare say a God damn thing

dont even try hiding your evil wing

I've already tasted your wicked sting

you chose someone loved you to deceive

I hate to remember I refuse to believe

so before I may hurt you.. please leave

you think I can forget?, you're mistaken

a piece of my heart is insulted and taken

a wild inner-demon in me is already awaken

please dont say I am the one you adore

your mistake is something you cant restore

just leave me alone, I dont want you anymore.

Written date and time: 6/12/08 9:54pm

Official Promo Video for Lily Allen's fantastic new single 'The Fear'.

Album Version. Taken from Lily's forthcoming album 'It's Not Me, It's You', out February 9th, available to grab from the Parlophone Store by clicking here:
It's Not Me, It's You

Here's The Lyrics!!

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

Chorus
I don't know what’s right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cuz I'm being taken over by The Fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it's how I'm program to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Bridge
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by fear

economy class!

you see, i love to fly, i simply adore it when the plane gets high up and i get this migrane out of no where, the pressure in my ears, the shaking of the air plane, the none sence about the seatbelt when it doesnt do anything really, just the experience itself is cool.
so i was schedualed to fly from cairo to kuwait, the trip is two hours only so there was no need to pay 250 kd for g class or above, so economy was well enough, it coast about 115 kd, so it was fine.
what i keep forgetting is that the kuwaiti airline fleet consist of woren out, outdated, over used, smelly, usually late, never exactly on time, overly priced, hidiously staffed, full of mechanicall flaws and seriously seriously filthy tin airplanes!
i was seated between two women that were kinda over the heavy porky side, one of them was a serious chatty kathy and the other one was holding her baby and rocking it in her lap.
i dont mind chatty kathies, chatty kathies make time fly by! chatty kathies inform me about many things i personally didnt know!
while boarding, chatty kathy was being chatty, so i was a very happy listener to what she was saying... - well not really but i rather hear useless chit chat than wait for an hour 'till the plane boards - and bang!
the woman with the baby flashes her boob and her baby nipples on it!
stourtest i shouted!
and when i realized that you can't say this word anymore, i started yelling flight attendent or how you spell that word - my spelling is awful! -
so she was graceful enough to kindly move me to another seat, which was a huge no no in my case since the plane was seriously filled with people!
my only choice was to be seasted between a bigger boobed body builder, the kind that has huge bi-ceps, tri-ceps and sep-ceps or whatever! and a seriously SERIOUSLY huge and scary beer gut!!
and a naggy old man that kept me on the edge of my seat for his remarks about everything, his silent remarks to be honest, i hate judgy silence!
i know, silenet remarks what the hell? but there is people who speak very loadly through their body language!
the flight took two hours, with the joy of munching on very bad airplane hot/cold semi melted semi frozen microwave food, the body builder was very smelly and he took lotsa my space...
as usual we were late, and when the plane landed, people pushed and clustered thewards the exit!!!
ay!!!
what is it with people these days!
i hate this!!
i hated the trip, the bad airplane and the people really killed the joy of flying!
damn u!! damn u to hell!!!!

Kids Say The Craziest Things!

Omg! I have no comment... speachless!!!


Hehehehehe, I'm Gonna Kick his "ASSK"

Awww Charlie!!! Cute!!!!!!!

No Talking There!! Oiiii!

BlooooodddHhHHHHH!

Jackass :P~

No Way!!! where do they make cute kids like this??
look what he told his mom!!!

Your legacy.

you can stop your devilish behaviour

I can purge your essence of satanic

come closer.. I can be your saviour

with true love, I'll wreck your panic

feel your soul, to my love surrender

I can revive your sense of self-esteem

come closer.. and sleep on my shoulder

from devil.. your soul I shall redeem

I know I fell in love with a ghost

even though, I will never give up

no one like the feeling of being lost

we belong together and I will never stop

your very next step is some-how simple

smile while breaking inside my love beam

together we will construct a holy temple

a home for us to live our sacred dream

are you having fun collapsing in tragic?

while I am here offering you a life bloom

throw away your stick of black magic

enough hatred escape your fateless doom

I am your legacy your only remaining chance

you're burning in desert seek out the shade

time to take a step by changing your stance

before its too late, before I forever fade

Written date and time: 2/12/08 5:40am